DEATH OF UNCLE MATHEW
Grace, during the days that Maggie was in London, regained something of her old tranquillity.It was wonderful to her to be able to potter about the house once more mistress of all that she surveyed and protected from every watching eye.She had had, from her very earliest years, a horror of being what she called "overlooked."She had a habit of stopping, when she had climbed halfway upstairs, of suddenly jerking her head round to see whether any one were looking at her.You would have sworn, had you seen her, that she was deeply engaged upon some nefarious and underhand plot; yet it was not so-she was simply going to dust some of her hideous china treasures in her bedroom.
Always after breakfast there was this pleasant ritual.She would plod all round the house, duster in hand, picking things up.giving them a little flick and putting them back again, patting treasures that she especially loved, sighing heavily with satisfaction at the pleasant sight of all her possessions tranquilly in their right places.As she looked around the ugly sitting-room and saw the red glazed pots with the ferns, the faded football-groups, the worsted mats and the china shepherdesses, a rich warm feeling rose in her heart and filled her whole body.It was like a fine meal to a hungry man: every morning at half-past nine she was hungry in this fashion, and every morning by eleven o'clock she was satisfied.Her thick body thus promenaded the house; she was like a stolid policeman in female attire, going his rounds to see that all was well.From room to room she went, pausing to pant for breath on the stairs, stumbling always because of her short sight at the three dark little steps just outside Paul's bedroom, always sitting down on her bed "to take a breath" and to get a full gaze at the crucifix of bright yellow wood, that hung just under her mother's picture.Tramp, tramp, tramp round the house she went.
It was incredible how deeply Maggie had interfered with this ritual.
She had certainly not intended to do so.After that first effort to change certain things in the house she had retired from the battle, had completely capitulated.Nevertheless she had interfered with all Grace's movements and, as the terror of her grew, it seemed to pervade every nook and corner of the house, so that Grace felt that she could go nowhere without that invasion.Oh, how she resented it, and how afraid she was! After Paul and Maggie returned from that summer holiday she saw that Paul too felt Maggie's strangeness.To Grace, from the beginning of that autumn, every movement and gesture of Maggie's was strange.The oddity of her appearance, her ignorance of everything that seemed to Grace to be life, her strange, half-mocking, half-wondering attitude to the Church and its affairs ("like a heathen in Central Africa"), her dislike of the Maxses and the Pynsents and her liking for the Toms and Caroline Purdie, her odd silences and still odder speeches, all these things increased the atmosphere that separated her from the rest of the world.
Then came the day when Grace, dusting in Maggie's bedroom, discovered the bundle of letters.She read them, read them with shame at her own dishonesty and anger at Maggie for making her dishonest.To her virgin ignorance the passion in them spoke of illicit love and the grossest immorality.Her heart burnt with a strange mingling of envy, jealousy, loneliness, shame, and eagerness to know more...
Then came Uncle Mathew's visit; then Caroline Purdie's disgrace.The count was fully charged.Maggie, that strange girl found in the heart of London's darkness, alone, without friends or parents, was a witch, a devilish, potion-dealing witch, who might, at any time, fly through the night-sky on a broom-stick as surely as any mediaeval old hag.These visions might be exaggerated for many human beings, not so for Grace.Having no imagination she was soaked in superstition.She clung to a few simple pictures, and was exposed to every terror that those pictures could supply.
Maggie now haunted her day and night.Everywhere she could feel Maggie's eyes piercing her.A thousand times an hour she looked up to see whether Maggie were not there in the room watching her.She hated her now with terror that was partly fear for her own safety, partly love and jealousy for Paul, partly outraged modesty and tradition, partly sheer panic.
She had, as yet, said very little to Paul.She waited the right moment.Maggie's absence showed her how deep and devastating this fear had been.She saw that it embraced the whole life of Paul and herself in Skeaton.She had grown fond of Skeaton; she was a woman who would inevitably care for anything when she had become thoroughly accustomed to its ways and was assured that it would do her no harm.
She liked the shops and the woods, the sand and the sea.Above all, she adored the Church.During a large part of every day she was there, pottering about, talking to the caretaker, poking her nose into the hymn-books to see whether the choir-boys had drawn pictures in them, rubbing the brasses, making tidy the vestry.The house too she loved, and the garden and the bottles on the wall.She might have known that she was not popular in the place, she cannot have failed to realise that she had no woman friend and that she was seldom invited to dinner.This did not matter to her.Her affections--and they were very real and genuine--were all for her brother.Had she Paul she wanted no one else.That was enough.
And now it might be that they would have to leave the place.Already the talk about Maggie was intolerable.Grace heard it on every side.