"How can I tell you," answered I; "what is henceforward to be my fate is better known to our future queen than to myself.""That is precisely what I dread," replied M. de Cosse. "Unfortunately you have deeply offended the queen elect, who has irritated her husband's mind against you; and then the Choiseul faction will, in all probability, come into power.""I see all this," returned I, "and am prepared for whatever may happen.""I admire your calmness in a moment like the present," cried the duke; "but have a care. Perhaps the best thing would be to remove you beyond the reach of the first shock of court displeasure. In your place I would request passports from the duc d'Aiguillon and travel into England.""Oh, speak not of such a thing, I conjure you," interrupted I;"I have a horror of such journeys, and would much rather trust to the generosity of the dauphiness. She is about to become a great queen, while I shall be a creature so humiliated and abased, that the very difference between our situations will be a sufficient vengeance in her eyes."We returned to the house, and had scarcely entered, when M. de Palchelbel, plenipotentiary to the prince des Deux Ponts, was announced.
"M. de Palchelbel," cried I, extending my hand, "what good wind brings you here?""I have been honoured by the commands of the prince, my master, madam," replied he, "to bring you the assurances of his unalterable friendship; and to say further, that whenever you feel dissatisfied with your residence in France, you will find at Deux Ponts an asylum, which the most earnest endeavors of the prince, my gracious patron, will strive to render agreeable to you."I was much affected by this mark of generous regard on the part of prince Charles Auguste; and, turning quickly towards the duke, I exclaimed,"What think you of all this? Will you henceforward believe those self-dubbed philosophers, who assert that friendship is unknown to royalty? You have here a proof of the contrary. For my own part, M. de Palchelbel," continued I, turning towards the minister, "I am much gratified by your message, and entreat of you to thank his royal highness most sincerely for me. I will write to him myself on the subject, but beg of you to repeat that, kind as are his offers, I cannot accept of them; but shall certainly remain in France until the new sovereign commands or permits me to quit it."I afterwards repeated to the minister of Deux Ponts what I had previously stated in the garden to M. de Cosse, and had the satisfaction of hearing madam d'Aiguillon approve of my sentiments.
When I retired to my apartment I was followed by my niece.
"How happy are you, dear aunt," said she, 'to preserve such friends in your present troubles.""I owe them," replied I, "to my simplicity and candor.""Will you not retire to Germany?"
"Certainly not," answered I.
"Yet it would be better to allow the first burst of displeasure on the part of the dauphiness to pass over.""Who gave you this counsel, my dear niece? I am quite sure it does not originate in yourself.""I had promised not to tell," answered she; "but if you insist upon it, I must confess, that I was persuaded by the prince de Conde and M. de Soubise to urge you to follow it.""Do they then wish for my absence?" inquired I, angrily.
"Only for your own sake, dearest aunt."
"I thank them; but my resolution is formed to commit myself entirely to Providence in this melancholy affair."The day passed on; and with feverish impatience I waited the arrival of the next courier: he came, at length, and confirmed my worst fears; the king was entirely given over by his physicians, and his dissolution was hourly expected. The letter containing this mournful tidings concluded thus:--"I have just seen comte Jean, he is here incognito.
We had entirely forgotten that passports would be necessary; however, I have now furnished him with four for England, Germany, Italy, and Switzerland.
The count is far from partaking of your sense of security, and is wisely anxious (as I think) of shielding himself from the first burst of royal vengeance. The duchess has informed me of your refusal of an asylum at Deux Ponts; and, while Iadmire your courage, permit me to add, that you should rather have listened to the dictates of prudence than magnanimity under present circumstances."The following morning, at an early hour, comte Jean entered my chamber, saying,"I understand the king is dead; have you heard anything of it?""Were the report correct," answered I, "I should have known it ere the intelligence reached Paris.""Well, living or dead, I am advised to keep out of the way; and this night will see me on my journey from Paris. Will you accompany me?""No, I replied I; "I have refused travelling with a much more creditable companion than yourself.""There you are wrong then; for, depend upon it, a cloister will be your fate; at any rate my business here is at an end. The new monarch is young, and attached to his wife, and my daughter-in-law is too great a simpleton to be turned to any account at court."My brother-in-law then requested I would furnish him with money.